Aspire1988

To anyone I might have been callous to or who might have gotten the wrong idea during a conversation...

I love all my friends dearly and when I fight with you all I can try to do is talk it out to make it better. But if I never hear back from you there's nothing more I can do.

My closest friend in the world growing up used to be my youngest cousin and my pen pal since neither of us had internet and phone calls were expensive.(yes 10 cents a minute was insane, no there was no unlimited plans or at least my family didn't have them)
But without any warning they just sopped writing letters to me. No matter how many I sent they never responded and even stopped signing the birthday card their family sent each year. 

My last attempt was in 2012 (some 4 or 5 years of not talking to them already) when I sent a letter telling them about a death of a dear pet that they in particular were very close to. Still nothing.

I don't know what I did to make them just cut ties like that... I still don't here another 5+ years later. And it makes me sick and bitter just thinking about it.


My point is, I can write letters and try to talk until I'm blue in the face. But if I'm just talking to a wall, what's the point?
I understand my way of talking can sound accusatory or other unpleasants but I'd rather you push back at me than turn your back on me.

Well, maybe there's some satisfaction for you knowing how much I'm hurt by not understanding why I turn so many people away. In some ways I even hope so because at least then something good can come of it.


This message is for over 3 people, but to one of the more recent falling outs...

I've tried to explain my side of things and asked questions to keep the dialog going in hopes of understanding your side better. But apparently that made everything shut down so you didn't want to talk anymore.

I'm sorry things went that way.

Nothing gets better if no one talks... even if it turns bad it's better then silence. But I've done my fair share of talking and been shut down twice. So it's up to you now.

I'll always consider you a friend and even if I never hear from you again I do sincerely wish you the very best










Sorry, that ran on more then it should have, but I really needed to get it off my chest Thank you all for letting me say my peace.

I've been debating whether or not I wanted to continue drawing. A while back (when I sold the rights to the comic VAL) I said I was ordering a new tablet, but I ended up canceling it the next day. Even the thought of starting another big projects made me feel ill.

But I think I might be able to come back to the art/comic community again thanks to the collab with Mama J (jmnm) & Din (Dinnartz) that's coming up. 
I can't say much about it right now. Din is the spearhead and main manager of the project. So she'll have the most updates and info on it when it's ready to launch.

I don't feel so anxious about it all when I know they've got as much stock in it as I will. So I express ordered my tablet (same kind as before so the learning curve with be easier) and it should show up today

I'll keep you posted on everything! But I'm looking forward to getting back into it.



Thank you all so much I probably would have quit a long time ago if it weren't for all of you!

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You all know how much I've been struggling lately, about the Setsail thing and the fate of VAL...

Well I've been talking it over with a couple close friends and I've come to realize I'm just not strong enough to handle that sort of thing happening. I've put too much of myself into VAL to see it go through that again but I couldn't stand the thought of letting the project die either.

I've really worked myself into a tight spot but thanks to the love and support of you all I've decided that I'm selling all the rights to VAL to someone I've come to really respect.

Dinnartz go check them out, they have amazing art

I haven't known them long but they've already showed how awesome a person they are and I know they'll treat VAL well they might actually do a better job then me since I sort of wussed out of the adult tone the story was supposed to have lol

Dinn and I already talked this over briefly like a week ago. I'll still have a hand in the project being a sort of ghost writer for the story and helping with character consistency. 
This ALSO means that all the adopted characters I bought for VAL will be transferred over to Dinn as well. Some of which are OS/CS so I'll do my best to track down any groups that she needs to join and all that so no worries

So hopefully the creative transition between us won't be too rough.

But yeah, be sure to go put Dinn on your watch list if you want to read more VAL!



On to other news!

Thanks to the money Dinn offered for the rights to VAL I'll be able to get a new tablet. And I'm making The Wolf Keeper my main project, so expect that to be showing up sometime in the near future

And I have a new mascot/avatar character so expect a ref of her showing up soon (after the new tablet gets in of course lol).

So yeah, it'll start being brighter around here soon

Thank you all again for your help! and sorry for such a big journal

see you all soon